This entire week (Aug 24th-29th) I had been getting up early and taking walks through my local park. It's very powerful being in nature, if only for a little while. During my walk, with camera in hand I found this spot and knew I had to do something. It was later after viewing the photo I discovered that it displayed the root of my personality, one in which I've only recently accepted fully.
A lot of people find it difficult spending time alone with themselves. For me, I've been so accustom to being alone that I crave it the most, I find power from it. However, I won't lie, it does drive me crazy, and, at times I want to be around friends or familiar people. Lately I've been feeling the "pain"of being alone to be triggered by not being with friends and my wife. Since being so far away from my wife the “lonely” feeling arises more as a “need” than feeling alone in general. I say “need” because being without the person you love makes it feel far more worse than simply having no one there at all.
Apart from my wife, I am rather fond of being alone and spending time with myself. Not to say I don't like being around my friends, it's just that being alone is very rewarding. Being alone means listening to yourself, hearing what your heart has to say and really taking in how you feel. Of course many can't handle that because half the time the heart is telling you how bad it feels because of how life had been going (the past) or where it's going to end up (the future). However, those times when the heart tells you those things it really wants to be comforted by you (being in the present). To simply feel the feelings that arise and not ignore or resist them. “What you resist, persists,” something I've learned in my late teenage years and applied in my life is various ways. Recently, I’ve become better at the resistance and being more fluid and not fixed on things being only one way.
In the end, this photo represents my alone time and my acceptance to it. If you feel alone or want to be, it will be a great time for self discovery and exponential growth for the self, self confidence, independence and mental strength. No need to be afraid of yourself!